Feliz day 3

Had a minor headache, bearable really. Made me feel more relaxed and made me feel my bed more softer than before. Had a good night sleep.

When I woke up, I still want to stay on bed longer. Not to mention I'm not able to notice when and how did I fall asleep. Out of the body experience maybe; my eyes are wide open but I feel like sleeping.

Also had a stiff neck; from lying in bed for a long time maybe.

Snappish~

Somehing almost or really made me irritated but if not for he meds, it's total melt down. Don't want to really test how will I handle things while I'm on meds. I'll just try to relax.

I also kept on telling myself to relax; like a reflex.

Second day with Feliz

Didn't have a headache which  somehow I expected. Had a good sleep; felt relax.

Nothing out of the ordinary.

First time sleeping with Feliz...

At first I was a bit hesitant, but yeah what would I loose anyway. Had a headache and felt drowsy. It's tolerable and bearable to I went to sleep. Woke up at around 2am, maybe hallucinating. My hallucinations are a bit ... hahaha. It's somewhat funny and didn't expect that.

In the morning I felt good. Was laughing even with some side jokes. A bit downside is that I feel sleepy in the afternoon, a side effect maybe. But all in all it was good.

Will continue and let's see what will the results be.

Contemplation...

So my grad school friends went out drinking last Saturday night as a celebration of our one year in grad school. Somewhat felt kind of sad because I'm not able to join them. I already went home in the afternoon last Saturday because I'm somewhat not in the mood and can't wait for them 'till 5pm. Went home around 1pm.

Decided to go to Cubao X to join W's amnesia night instead. Left the house around 5pm. Braced myself  driving and passing the traffic in Edsa. Arrived at Cubao X around 8pm, been driving for almost 3 hours.  Not used to go driving for 3 hours, my limit is 2 hours only.Got a scratch on my car. When I parked my car, I'm not able to estimate my turn and scratch the side of the car in the island besides my parking slot.

Was a bit "violent" that night, as to what they say. Drank vodka 7, 2 San Mig light, 1 Magnun beer and 1 Tanduay ice. Drunk; very often to happen. I didn't had dinner that time, just ordered siomai. Slept for I don't know, few minutes or few seconds. Had to barf twice! Not in the restroom but just on the side. Yuck, I know.

We went home at 2 pm. Arrived home safe and sound at 3pm minus the scratch on my car.

Maybe I'm just under the weather. For those things to happen.

Contemplating whether I should have waited 'till 5 pm and joined my grad school friends. Shouldn't got the scratch on my car and not became somewhat "violent" that night.

I'll just try to make it up with them with our next night out. When? I don't know. Maybe after mid terms or again, after our finals; which is after four months.

I just enjoyed the moment. That's all...

Decisions...let's make it easier...

As much as I want to make decisions, I'm slowing it down and it's so delayed. I'm still on the same ground and it's making a toll already. I should really decide. I'm giving myself until the end of this month whether or not I'll make this decision. It's somewhat a make or break but not that grand.

If I want to push myself forward a bit, I really should pursue it. Argh... it's really hard to make decisions. It's crucial and the timing really matters.

I really don't want to stress myself much but it's already hitting me.

Need to chill down a bit and who knows when would my worries disappear.

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My heart says go, but my money says no.Tough choices; are you ready to make them?

I can relate to it. It's actually my heart says yes but I'm not motivated to do it. Tough choices; when would I decide? I should make it to the point that I can enjoy what I'm doing and be what I really want.

For how long, I don't know. It's really tough. Let's just see.

And as to what my friends and I are saying: Enjoy the moment until it lasts.

Create post...

Here I go again, with my so ever random thoughts. Can't even collect my thoughts and be able to write a long well written blog post...

I feel nostalgic again and somehow I see this as a bad thing. It's just the middle of the term and I'm somewhat loosing motivation to do things. I might drag down my group mates and I don't even want to do that. I think I just need to let loose a bit or some more.

On other thoughts, it's already our fourth time doing the bowling fun game or what ever we want to call it. And somehow, we'll change the phase a bit and we'll add the drinking part after the games. hahaha Before, eating dinner and coffee is enough but I think we'll just put it to the next level and make it a drinking night.

I can't join their weekly drinking nights because of some consequences and stuffs but if it's planned for two weeks in advance I can't join and heck, 'm the one who is organizing the bowing events every month.

For a change, I'm somehow improving and changing because I can express myself and talk about things to other people compared to before that I just bottle it up.

I just look forward for the succeeding events and to meet with friends, hang out and talk about things.

Happy thoughts, good vibes and positive thinking.

Bullet points...

Went to play bowling alone at MOA. It was fun though I didn't score high. hahaha Somehow it was fun 'cause you can play at your own phase but it'll be much more fun if you play bowling with a lot of friends, especially if they are so giddy and excited.

While driving home, O-Town's All or Nothing payed. I really liked that song. It so classic and you'll just reminisce in an instant. I'm just emo at times. XD

Sometimes  hate it when the weather just changes uprightly. It makes me think of lots of things and makes me feel sad and emo. I just wonder over things, over spilled milk and my o so simple bucket lists.

I'm really contemplating of skipping Copy writing as one of my cognates. I have 4 choices in mind and I might exchange Advertising for Copy writing. I want to take copy writing to bring back my creative writing skills but I don't want to make it hard for me. Advertising is interesting also, plus my other 2 choices for cognates are inclined in the creatives and production side of marketing. So I think it's much more appropriate to skip copy writing.

I just hope that I can make up my mind and not worry much...