Feliz feliz feliz day 5

Hmmm...got a good night sleep. Just felt fatigued or sleepy during the mornings. Need to take a nap on the afternoon. Been dong that for 2 day already.

Hungry in the morning, but don't have an appetite in the evenings; though I still can eat. Not just feeling the drive to eat but I can still eat.

Everything almost seems normal.

Yeah, my face is back to being oily. Had some breakouts, hormones maybe.

That's all. I'll try to sleep early so that  won't get sleepy in the mornings.

Feliz's 4th day

Almost felt normal. My bed is the most comfortable place; feels so soft than before.

Still waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, but is able to go back to sleep easily.

Feliz day 3

Had a minor headache, bearable really. Made me feel more relaxed and made me feel my bed more softer than before. Had a good night sleep.

When I woke up, I still want to stay on bed longer. Not to mention I'm not able to notice when and how did I fall asleep. Out of the body experience maybe; my eyes are wide open but I feel like sleeping.

Also had a stiff neck; from lying in bed for a long time maybe.

Snappish~

Somehing almost or really made me irritated but if not for he meds, it's total melt down. Don't want to really test how will I handle things while I'm on meds. I'll just try to relax.

I also kept on telling myself to relax; like a reflex.

Second day with Feliz

Didn't have a headache which  somehow I expected. Had a good sleep; felt relax.

Nothing out of the ordinary.

First time sleeping with Feliz...

At first I was a bit hesitant, but yeah what would I loose anyway. Had a headache and felt drowsy. It's tolerable and bearable to I went to sleep. Woke up at around 2am, maybe hallucinating. My hallucinations are a bit ... hahaha. It's somewhat funny and didn't expect that.

In the morning I felt good. Was laughing even with some side jokes. A bit downside is that I feel sleepy in the afternoon, a side effect maybe. But all in all it was good.

Will continue and let's see what will the results be.

Contemplation...

So my grad school friends went out drinking last Saturday night as a celebration of our one year in grad school. Somewhat felt kind of sad because I'm not able to join them. I already went home in the afternoon last Saturday because I'm somewhat not in the mood and can't wait for them 'till 5pm. Went home around 1pm.

Decided to go to Cubao X to join W's amnesia night instead. Left the house around 5pm. Braced myself  driving and passing the traffic in Edsa. Arrived at Cubao X around 8pm, been driving for almost 3 hours.  Not used to go driving for 3 hours, my limit is 2 hours only.Got a scratch on my car. When I parked my car, I'm not able to estimate my turn and scratch the side of the car in the island besides my parking slot.

Was a bit "violent" that night, as to what they say. Drank vodka 7, 2 San Mig light, 1 Magnun beer and 1 Tanduay ice. Drunk; very often to happen. I didn't had dinner that time, just ordered siomai. Slept for I don't know, few minutes or few seconds. Had to barf twice! Not in the restroom but just on the side. Yuck, I know.

We went home at 2 pm. Arrived home safe and sound at 3pm minus the scratch on my car.

Maybe I'm just under the weather. For those things to happen.

Contemplating whether I should have waited 'till 5 pm and joined my grad school friends. Shouldn't got the scratch on my car and not became somewhat "violent" that night.

I'll just try to make it up with them with our next night out. When? I don't know. Maybe after mid terms or again, after our finals; which is after four months.

I just enjoyed the moment. That's all...

Decisions...let's make it easier...

As much as I want to make decisions, I'm slowing it down and it's so delayed. I'm still on the same ground and it's making a toll already. I should really decide. I'm giving myself until the end of this month whether or not I'll make this decision. It's somewhat a make or break but not that grand.

If I want to push myself forward a bit, I really should pursue it. Argh... it's really hard to make decisions. It's crucial and the timing really matters.

I really don't want to stress myself much but it's already hitting me.

Need to chill down a bit and who knows when would my worries disappear.

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My heart says go, but my money says no.Tough choices; are you ready to make them?

I can relate to it. It's actually my heart says yes but I'm not motivated to do it. Tough choices; when would I decide? I should make it to the point that I can enjoy what I'm doing and be what I really want.

For how long, I don't know. It's really tough. Let's just see.

And as to what my friends and I are saying: Enjoy the moment until it lasts.